Lost in My Mind
Jan 11, 2014
This is a strange post to write. I've kind of left it off for a while (hence the lack of posts...) but alas, here goes. I'll start by wishing you all a most joyous 2014, I hope the first couple of days have been treating you well :). Life has been strange these past couple of months, especially in the last couple of weeks, and the crummy weather isn't helping one bit.
I'm in the middle of that whole - 'where on earth is my life going?' rut and it's really bringing me down. I've been feeling physically ill, practicing flute (the one thing that usually brings up my mood) now makes me sadder, and school is just so emotionally draining right now (break was only 2 weeks long), plus many, many other things are going on right now.
It's funny how easy it is to write my heart out on this blog, when most of my friends don't even know I've been feeling blue. I can't help but wonder if I made the right choice coming to this University, or where I will be in the next five years or even next semester as I may transfer. I've found myself taking more photos and writing more short stories. Then my dear friend pointed out that they are are all extremely dark and gloomy. It's scary because art really reflects the individual oftentimes and I'm usually so high spirited. Am I turning all negative all of a sudden?
I'm still figuring it out, and contacted an old friend/teacher back home. I truly value her amazing advice. She told me that no matter how big a problem seems, it's not as bad as it looks. And really you must stand up and fight for what you love and want to do, because who else will? Take a break from life, you have time, heal your soul, move on. It'll all be okay. After all - "There are stars up above." Just remember that.
Much love. xx
Currently Listening to - Lost in my Mind - The Head and the Heart
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| {Captured by Rob - wearing; the Limited shirt, HM Shorts, Zara boots, RL socks, NY&co Coat, Chanel watch, gifted bracelet, ring, and Scarf from Morocco} |